Beautiful Distraction

You still make me nervous
I melt in your hold
But because of my silence,
you think that I'm bored

Things may seem tranquilized,
but that's hardly the core
The truth's that all the aching
has left my heart sore

Like a bad game of ping pong
that began on your court
of one too many lovers
I felt more than short

The game came to deuce
and it was my turn
to show off my lover
but instead I let you burn

I remember you told me
how you felt shafted that day
That was the first day
I started to ache

When will I stop being
afraid of your hold?
And gaze without shyness
to penetrate your soul

It seems like all I'm doing
is looking for reasons to bolt
Because right now I'm unstable
And I need to let you go

You know if I leave you now
It doesn't mean that I love you any less
It's just the state I'm in
You know I can't be any good to you like this